The Bargain

“Every atom of me and every atom of you.” – Philip Pullman, The Amber Spyglass.

Someone I love hurt me, deeply hurt me.

I thank that someone for he is my mirror. He cut me open and the light got inside.

All this light, it whispered to me.
It reminded me of the bargain we stroke a long time ago,
In another time, in another state, in another space.
A bargain that would make us love, laugh, hurt, and part.
A bargain that gave him the role of the villain and me the role of the victim,
Roles neither of us wanted but that we were willing to play in order to help us remember who we are, who we were…
In order to make us remember there is no such things as villains or victims in this world.
Only friendly souls intending to wake each other up.

A bargain done in love, for love, and with love.
A bargain that would merge our souls and then tear them apart to help us remember that We Are All One And that unity allows for separation, independence, and individuality.
To help us remember that to love is to be free, to love is to let go, to love is to let be.
A bargain that returned us to ourselves, a little bit more whole, a little bit more grown, a little bit more loved.

And then, after all the pain, we can finally agree that the bargain wasn’t in vain. It was worth the darkness, for it brought forth our light.

I thank you soul, My Friend, for making that bargain with me,
Such a long time ago,
For keeping to the script, for playing the villain, a role I know it is even harder to play.
I thank you, I love you, I let you go in Peace.
Remember.
Remember the bargain, remember the love, hold on to the light, let go of your role, be who you are and shine through.
Let us forgive and never forget all the light we give and gave, all that was done in love, and all the lessons that the pain has shown.
As long as we remember, all the pain has not been in vain.

And so, I will never regret the bargain that we stroke such a long time ago In another time, in another state, in another space.
A bargain that would make us love, laugh, hurt, and part.
A bargain that returned us to ourselves.

A bargain between friends, a bargain between souls. A bargain done in Love.
And that is more than just enough.

Thank you. I love you.